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November 25

Talking about 领悟

华华同学自己唱的. 我来站个台做个宣传. 值得关注的新人哈~~~~Hot

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领悟
 
在家没事录着玩,没有经过编辑的。live版。。。
 
     
 
 
 
November 01

GMAT 770

 
waha waha wahahaha.
 
October 23

Talking about The Right Brain vs Left Brain

i thought this is a joke and thought the animation actually switch directions. but it is ture!! I just learned to control my mind so I can see she never turn back at me. She just turns right half way and turns left half way. Very Cool~~~~~~ 

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The Right Brain vs Left Brain

The Right Brain vs Left Brain test ... do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise?

If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa.
Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.  I recommend you use Firefox to view it.

   dancer

LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses logic
detail oriented
facts rule
words and language
present and past
math and science
can comprehend
knowing
acknowledges
order/pattern perception
knows object name
reality based
forms strategies
practical
safe

RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS
uses feeling
"big picture" oriented
imagination rules
symbols and images
present and future
philosophy & religion
can "get it" (i.e. meaning)
believes
appreciates
spatial perception
knows object function
fantasy based
presents possibilities
impetuous
risk taking

October 20

大洪水

对于经济萧条我有个不登大雅之堂但非常有效的比喻Embarrassed: 经济萧条就像女人的月经; 身体健康的时候它就会周期性的到达. 你可以人为的去推迟它, 甚至一直推迟它. 但身体总会遭到报应的. Baring teeth
 
看着DOW呼啦啦的自由落体, 有种 "叫你Y横, 现在跨得瓜兮兮了吧" 的快感. 联储局的人不傻, 13,4岁女生都懂道理他们应该懂. 他们一直推延着美国的大姨妈, 不在乎外债超过1亿亿(是这么说么? 超得我都不知道中文怎么说了Baring teeth)! 然而人力定难胜天. 报应得美国政府从未有过的"瓜兮兮"; 比陈水扁还无赖. DOW跨一点,他们就鸡犬不宁一番然后跳大戏一样的跑出来说几句话, 塞点钱. 钱从哪里来?不管是直接TAX还是通过印钱增加通涨压力的变相TAX, 暴利私有化, 黑锅公有化, 就是美资本主义的最后实质. Broken heart
 
从BERNANKE一直减低FED RATE开始, 他们就在打推延战术. 这战术GREENSPAN在2003打过. 大姨妈也被延迟了. BERNANKE这次还想延, 结果就赶上报应了. 大姨妈如同洪水一样席卷而来. (有点恶心了, 暂且打住)Wilted rose
 
美国资本的空洞倒底有多大? 我喜欢用"保守"的金融评估手段分析Nerd. 股价怎么定? NPV: 一个公司的现金流动表, 估价一个近期增长幅度, 一个远期增长幅度, 最后的持续增长幅度, 用无风险的利率折回到现价. 那什么可以使这个NPV变呢? 只有增长幅度. 这是个大家估计的数. 每个人有每个人的看法. 但从10%涨到30%是可以凭空捏造的么? 如果没有根本的工业技术革命, 那里来的新增长线. INTERNET的发明是上一次的增长幅度大调整. 之后的一切暴涨在我看来都是泡沫Hot. 是个你把我价格太高所以我要把你价格抬高你才能买我的空头支票交易. 商品金融交易的2%是现货交易. 这还是几年前的数据. 金融交易进入商品交易本来是为了提高资源流动运转效率. 后来, 就成了为捞钱而捞钱的赌场. 以前金融评估手段都变成了"落后保守". Disappointed 说来说去, 就是个足可以毁灭过去10年价值的黑洞. 还不算滚雪球的效应.
 
30年代的萧条, 二战救了美国. 80年代的萧条, INTERNET的发明救了美国, 还抵消了当时日本会超越美国的论言. 08年的萧条, 很有看头. 美国政府会把这戏演下去. 而且不出岔, 会越来越赖皮.
 
中国的媒体把这个金融危机叫成了"金融大海啸". 我觉得很有巧合. 大洪水的来临? 然后是新的世界, 新的信仰Angel?  
 
贴一首让我听哭的歌. PINK的Dear Mr President.  
What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
一个真正胸怀天下的人, 应该像爱自己的孩子一样爱天下子民.
一个政治领袖是肯定做不到的,
需要一个精神领袖.  

  

October 02

2008九月-中国

大学的时候靠机场近. 那几年经常看着天空中的飞机感伤:"什么时候我才能坐上回国的飞机呢?" 05年终于第一次回国, 心病才算了结. 还学着河东狮吼, 去初恋的地方解开了一个长久郁结的答案.
 
这一次回国, 轻松很多. 敞开了心的旅游. 上海重庆张家界凤凰, 两个星期搞得很赶的, 还好年轻. 没有太多的感想, 只是悄悄发现了一些改变. 变与不变, 我们都会计较, 与其自扰, 不如淡然的去适应.
 
在回美国的飞机上看了SEX&CITY的电影, 哭了好几次. 不喜欢很没诚意的结局, 但也无所谓了. 感动过就好. 所有爱情故事, 也就是这般道理.
 
飓风后的HOUSTON已经看不出什么变化. 我又成了小卷毛. 生活然后继续.
 
 在上海看到了YJS和ZYN. 中学时候的同学呀~~还是好亲切的. 7年没见到了呀~~~
September 06

Engaged

来路漫漫, 不忧, 不惧, 不惑.
在一起.
 
 
Girls, FYI, this is the ring. I love the Emerald cut. It is not as shining as the Round or the Princess but it is very elegant and shows the clarity and the natural color of the stone. William made a good choice. I love it.
 
July 28

反向思维

<一> 人的境况
有没想过, 我们眼睛看到的世界其实不是世界真实的面貌. 我们面前的人有光滑的皮肤. 可是科学已经证明在那其实是细胞组成的, 然后小到原子电子, 还有科学没发现的. 人的眼睛所能看到的其实不是真实的, 而是人所能接受的. 人的眼睛看来一层不变的一个光滑面其实每秒钟都有生有死. 真实的世界其实没有颜色, 没有形状, 只是小小的分子, 原子, 电子.
人的视力和眼界之间的差别就是智慧. 所谓智者就是可以理解他肉眼看不见的东西. 然而, 视力的障碍还是决定性的. 真正的超越很难.
热锅上有一群蚂蚁. 拼命的来回跑, 互相沟通, 企图自救. 可是他们不明白这锅是怎么热的, 或者, 热这锅的人究竟有没有想灭掉这群蚂蚁, 而它们的奔跑又是不是徒劳.
人的境况其实也一样.
<二> 信仰
Dark Knight里有个讽刺的败笔. 两个船的人应该会杀死对方的. 这在得Nobel Prize的John Nash的Game Theory里就已经证明过. 最优化的数学结果跟所谓善恶无关. 又或者, 最优化的数学结果就指向了需要人性本恶, 本自私的结论. 如果危险真的如同刀架在脖子上一样真实, 一个思维敏捷, 行为果断, 求生欲强的人应该选择牺牲对方.
所有善恶都是教条主义的自圆其说. 尼采的未来的哲学就是要超越所有传统意义上的善和恶, Beyond Good and Evil.
混淆了所有条款的浑沌, 难道就是真正的正义? 就像Joker说的... at least it is fair.
不过, John Nash成了疯子, 尼采成了疯子, Joker也被描写成疯子.
但我还是相信会有一个新的信仰诞生.
<三>意义
"生活是灵魂的意义"- 我初一的时候写在日记里的. 人是不是越小越通灵(又是条款的问题).
最近在Youtube上认识了一个自称外星人的人. 从他那里看到一些学习冥想的短片. 能不能astral travel我还没体验过. 但冥想的目的是身心的分离的观点我很赞成.
肉体和灵魂哪个重要, 大多数人都会说灵魂, 然后大多数人做的选择却是为了肉体. 吃得好, 住得好, 穿得好. 灵魂往往是在这些为了让肉体享受的行为中受困. 一切压力和心病的来源.
想办法把身和心分开来看. 把重点放在心上. 很多问题会迎刃而解.
生活的意义在灵魂. 生活是为了让灵魂更有意义.
<四> 走向
BLOG里有篇旧稿, 去年7/28号就写了但没头没尾的, 所以一直没发. 今天刚好是一周年. 题目叫"iCulture". 现在搬过来.
SO... iphone went on sale and beat analysts' estimates by twice the size. 1800 stores were out of stock within 24 hrs...I was at work and surfing the sites i used to visit. "iGoogle" is my default homepage. All of a sudden, one thing occured to me.. the "iCulture". 
Before internet, we were exposed to mass media. We heard what we were told. Then there's internet, we see what we search for. And now, this "we see what we search for" has been pushing to a new exteme, to something i would call "i" culture- it is no longer the media determines what "i" can  see, it is "i" define what info is useful and should be seen. All the "i"s out there suggest what's the most viewed news, most trackback linked sites, best rated movies, best defination of something, best route to get from A to B, best sold product...
一年后的今天, 我当时的看法已经得到了验证, 现在已经有很多前面带个"i"的名词. "自我文化"是人类社会的新走向, 会塑造接下来的几个世纪.
<五>启示
"自我文化"带来的会不会是新的信仰? 关于宇宙构造到生命哲学的新一轮革命. 还没有想通.  
 
 
July 12

Vegas'08

Mom's sad look...Covered Parking...broken sandals...Venti Green Tea...Terrorist Cards..."我怕坐飞机"...Las Vegas...Dodge...Paris...1049/1049p...Wal mart...Landry's..."were you a singer in some show?"...Mexitini...Jeff...Bellagio Fountain...BJ in MGM...Studio 54...Rasberry Martini...J&DC...walk the strip bare foot...oolala...Le Cafe...Venetian...bar in Wynn...Majito...Blue Man Show...brunch buffet in Paris...hwy93...20mile rocky road..."half empty gas tank"...sky walk...rock climbing...Sushi factory...Bellagio...Ceazars...Venti Green Tea..."降落的时候差点轮回了"...Mom's sad look

去VEGAS感想其实是少的. ZT说VEGAS展现了人类最完美的一面, 很新颖的想法. 的确, 罪恶之城涵盖并放大了人性里所有欲望. 但换个角度, 其实所有欲望源于本性, 名誉, 富有, 美色. 倒底是完美还是肮脏, 要看是表象, 还是本体的意向. 无论如何, 去了VEGAS, 人们会想好好赚钱, 好好锻炼腹肌.

还有个特别的经历就是在GRAND CANYON那天. 我热到不行了, 所以拖着WW远离人群之后. 背靠着山体遮阳休息, WW感叹这些纵横交错的大山是千年不断的堆积. 我让他闭上眼睛别说话. 听... 空旷, 宁静, 深远..."千年的感触不是看出来的, 是听出来的."我对WW说. 很奇妙的几十秒, 我相信这段记忆的碎片能在灵魂藏很久, 然后在我需要的时候给我生命的答案.

在VEGAS还见到了LJY, 初中的同学, 他初三完了就跟母亲来了美国. 后来久而久之再没见过. 最近联系上了. 听说我要去VEGAS, 离他们那里开车只要5个小时, 于是我们事隔十年的见上了一面. 时间是奇怪的东西. 说起来十年, 有时候你会突然怀疑这十年是否真的存在. 也许像ENSTEIN的相对论, 时间和空间都是能伸缩变换的. 一念之间.

 

June 29

"Envy Me"

生命的轮回应该没有时钟的轮回准确. 但我还是如期的反省, 如期的收到祝福.
 
去年的生日拿到一张TEMPTATION. 之后的半年在爱情和事业上都做过选择. 在挣扎和混乱中瞑想, 突然听到心的声音, 一切的诱惑就变得可笑而卑鄙. 一路走来, 我还是很幸福. 而且越来越快乐. 感谢默默陪我的人.
 
去年的愿望都实现了. 今年要继续珍惜一切并且努力生活.
 
生日我总会买一瓶新的香水, 去年是CHANNEL的CHANCE, 也许当时太需要一个出口了. 今年我要一瓶GUCCI的ENVY ME. 说实话我一直觉得这名字不太适合我. 少了种态度. 但很喜欢它甜美粉红的香. 也罢, 就在成长中SHOW一些ATTITUDE吧.
 
PICK ME CHOOSE ME LOVE ME ENVY ME
May 19

地震带

在WIKIPEDIA上找到余震经纬度表. 于是把它用EXCEL画下来.
增长一点知识. 开始几天都是大范围的. 后三天就是局部的.
奇怪的是震中居然在整个地震带的南部(而不是中间). 所以成都受的影响不大吧. 后来都在北边了.
 
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地震来了倒底要躲哪里啊??

怎么有好多说法??

倒底该不该跑出去啊?  还是先躲着再跑啊?

还有以前说的要躲床和桌子底下, 怎么又收到EMAIL图片说不要, 而是应该躲旁边.

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May 13

5.12 - 生命最大的智慧

2008果然是多事的一年. 不过风雨后才能见彩虹. 512汶川大地震的相关报道和BLOG很多了. 我想记录点别的.
 
我奶奶今年88了. 头发只是这几年才有些花白, 穿针引线还不用老花镜. 我爷爷今年86, 但身体明显不如我奶奶. 平日里给老人打电话, 爷爷总是问长问短什么都担心什么都关心, 而奶奶总是简单的问大家都好吗? 都好就好.
 
大地震离重庆还是有些距离, 但住在13楼的爷爷奶奶还是受了影响. 我姑姑和保姆当时都在家. 我们打电话回去的时候他们都说吓死了好可怕. 只有我奶奶说"我当时在沙发上睡午觉, 还以为有人摇我. 好好玩."
 
笑一笑十年少. 生命最大的智慧, 其实也是最朴实的. 以一颗开朗积极的心去面对一切, 人生会就异常的富有和充实. 与其为挫折担忧, 不如去尽情的舞蹈生命全部的色彩.  
 
   

I have seen peace. I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel a fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?
And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend. I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.

May 01

You're Beautiful

 
The Highlander Bar. 我记得那晚的一切.
 
我开始在离歌手最近的桌子背对着他们坐着. Jack on Diet, 很甘甜又韵味十足, 喝再多第二天也不会头痛.
熟悉的You are beautiful从背后响起. 变换后的调子提醒了我周围的环境.
随人随遇. 气氛也刚刚好.
 
有时候, 我真的很容易入戏, 虽然只是有时候.
音乐响起时候, 就舞动双手.
仰起头, 才会满面泪流.
 
 
    
April 02

IMF Cuts Global Forecast on Worst Crisis Since 1930s

April 2 (Bloomberg) -- The International Monetary Fund cut its forecast for global growth this year and said there's a 25 percent chance of a world recession, citing the worst financial crisis in the U.S. since the Great Depression.

玛雅人记载2012年12月21号是记时的最后一天, 这也就是所谓的玛雅世界末日大预言. PAULSON昨天提出了金融系统改革计划. 我在GOOGLE FINANCE上留言说.

金融系统扩大流通提高效率, 但进来了太多纯粹以赚钱为目的的炒作者, 金融市场成了赌场. PAULSON的蓝皮书救不了我们. 我们需要的是新的圣经.

trading system is great until greedy players flood in and turn it into a casino. a blueprint wont fix the problem. we need a new bible.

http://finance.google.com/group/google.finance.983582/browse_thread/thread/c38ce5e03c43a084/5b0d291f4d0d6eae?hl=en#5b0d291f4d0d6eae

 

Unemployment+ Inflation = Stagflation

Quote MARCH 17 2008

历史点?!
信贷系统是美国经济的发电机, 超强度工作下终于掉了链子. 空头支票人手一张的时候大家都开心, 但大家都开始兑现了, 才发现原来根本没什么钱. ERRON和BEAR STERNS都是因为没有现金流而破了产/贱卖了. 美国也是因为同样的原因要被贱卖了...
 
美元会变得很CHEAP.
石油会被银行炒得很EXPENSIVE.
中东人就可以买美国了. 拉登就比HITLER还牛了.
BERNAKE减FED RATE也是不够的了. 他哪天突然把胡子剃了也许更有用.
美国人会很喜欢中国人民来旅游了. 就跟香港人喜欢大陆行一样.
 
我当时选工作的时候没有继续做TRADING更没有去银行, 事实证明厚道的人是有好报的.
但我想拿着美元回成都工作的美梦就没那么美了.
 
那天有人问美国这棵空了心的大树什么时候会倒. 我说有一天会有只小鸟飞来停在一个小树枝上.... 结果是一只小熊.
 

差点忘了还有个重要内幕. 我也是前几个月才知道的... Plunge Protection Team (or President's Working Group on Financial Markets) 看看美国政府除了拿税金去打仗, 去救贪婪的银行, 还去干了什么....  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Working_Group_on_Financial_Markets

  Quote August 29 2007

"The Ghost of Market Crashes Past"
 

  Quote February 27 2007

A day to remember
 
Thank TT for uploading the pic. The candlestick chart is 5 min intraday DOW. That 200points red bar happened right in front of my eyes.
It is the day i had most fun at work...

Quote December 29 2006

....>_<....
I actully wish I am Chicken Little..... Ancient ice shelf breaks free from Canadian Arctic (POSTED: 11:31 a.m. EST, December 29, 2006 )

http://www.cnn.com/2006/TECH/science/12/29/canada.arctic.ap/index.html

Quote: "This is a dramatic and disturbing event. It shows that we are losing remarkable features of the Canadian North that have been in place for many thousands of years. We are crossing climate thresholds, and these may signal the onset of accelerated change ahead."

Happy New Year?!!! and How many happy years we still have?!!! ....>_<....

Quote May 17 2006

Market Watch

Sorry for being an OL and this seems to be the only kind of thing I talk about recently…Well.. Usually it is "join the talk if interested". This time, I think is relevant to a bigger crowd.

1) Employment rate seems to be high. Don’t be happy…Latest report on April CPI indicates a 0.6% increase. Dont remember how to spell that econ guy's name, but I do remember there's a trade off between inflation and unemployment. This is not surprising when oil is at all time high and has to push inflation rate even higher. To sum up, yes, more ppl are getting jobs, but more ppl are getting paid under "2 gallon gas" per hour wage.

2) House buyers…stop signs…real estate bubble has simply built up to a very destructive level. Luckily, I am in Houston. Things could go gross, but hopefully not too bad. I will rent (if I can move out first…=_=!)

3) Metal is at all time high. Gold reaches 25yr high. Worries…and my dearest favorite Mr. Buffet seems to agree. He purchased a 80% stake in Iscar, an Israeli-based metal cutting tools firm. Metal has negative correlation with the market. In other words, I think Buffet worries the market is going downward in the near future, if not crashed. Or worse, US market might crash, that's why he chose international investments.

Well, good luck folks. Sorry for being so pessimistic, I am a Cancer, and for folks know my last name.. I can be "bearish". I've been talking about market crash since last year, hope I can be wrong for another year.  

Quote March 26, 2006

Cover story on TIME last week

Be worried, be very worried

The climate is crashing, and global warming is to blame

Sunday, March 26, 2006; Posted: 11:27 a.m. EST (16:27 GMT)

Editor's note: The following is a summary of this week's Time magazine cover story.

 http://www.cnn.com/2006/US/03/26/coverstory/index.html

 Quote: "There will be no polar ice by 2060," says Larry Schweiger, president of the National Wildlife Federation.
Polar ice is so reflective that 90 percent of the sunlight that strikes it simply bounces back into space, taking its energy with it. Ocean water does just the opposite, absorbing 90 percent of the light and heat it receives,
  
I am only 76 by then... poor grandma dont wanna die la....>_<....

  Quote September 02 2005

油价~?!
油价飑升, 公愤了.
 
毕竟也是在ENERGY TRADING FLOOR上踩过的(虽然更多时候是和AC去那边的KITCHEN, 因为那边有HOT CHOCOLATE. 西西...), 也来八卦八卦. 哦呵呵~
 
物以稀为贵. 长远看来, 油价上扬是个趋势. 但现在短时间里飞升却是炒作出来的. NEW ORLEANS出了事, SUPPLY是会紧缺. 但炒过头了.
 
自从ENRON垮台后, 大石油公司都纷纷都争当ENERGY TRADING的头头. 石油公司卖油本来也没什么. 可是, 近几年, 随着FUTURE和OPTION一类的FINANCIAL DERIVATIVE的出现, 商品交易也渐渐金融化了. 换句话说, 没油的人也可以卖油了, 相当于借了来卖. 所以, 大的银行和大的会计事务所(罪魁祸首)都开始尝试能源交易了.
 
就像两个人做买卖, 无论哪方都不会好意思喊出天价. 但100个人挤进来, 就乱套了. 市场不稳定, 风险就大; 风险大, 价格就上扬.
 
油价BUBBLE了, 原料费就涨, 物价就跟着涨. 一起BU